memories of my father

its been a year and a  quarter  since he passed away but i always miss him.
no words could come close enough  to describe the feeling of losing him.
maybe the scar in my heart will fade in time  but memories of him
will linger forever.

i clearly remember during my 18th birthday when he said on his speech that when i was still a baby i was left to my lolas care while they moved to a nearby town so that my lola would not be alone. thats why i became a lola's girl...and spoiled at that  : )

his wish for me is to follow his footsteps as a doctor and promised me that the tall and elegant cake will just be an icing once that dream is fulfilled.

 papa was a good provider and  supportive during our growing up years. he was always silent most of the time.  what he lack in words, he showed in his actions. if  i needed extra cash he will give me without hesitation. while we were studying he was strict. there was even a time when  an "admirer"  visited me and parked his car in front of our house and i was appalled when i discovered that  all his car tires were flat, courtesy of our houseboy as ordered by him. i think he was just making his message clear...no suitors until getting a diploma.

yes, he was right. when i became a doctor he accompanied me to the altar to marry my husband. he was also the town mayor during that time.

 since then i got even closer to him. when i went back to our town to practice at the family owned Sto. Nino Hospital i get to see him everyday. he was my boss, my adviser, my foreman, my critic. he was what a loving father does to a daughter.  and i felt so lucky to have him around.  just writing and remembering his ways i feel like crying because i miss his presence.

when he died the whole town mourned with us. i saw him in the eyes of the poor people who visited him during his wake , who at one time was touched by his kindness. for he was such a compassionate and
kindhearted man. he has a heart for the less fortunate and poor people.

what i am now and what i have accomplished i owe it to my father.  he has instilled in me the values not learned from school. for that i will forever be grateful.

 if i even accomplish half of what he gave and shared  then i know he will be happy  because his legacy continues in me.

happy father's day!!!